"Do not worry about tomorrow"

Our week has been good so far! And even when it hasn't always felt good, we know God is still good and working things out to His perfect will. I pray continually that His will would become my will as I surrender our life and Grace's life to His control. This is a daily struggle for me, and each day that I wake up I lay my fears at the foot of the cross and do it all again. I step out in faith, not feeling very brave, but knowing it is in Christ who gives me strength and in whom I can do all things!

Sam and I were able to go home Saturday night, sleep at our own apartment, hang out with our cats, and attend our church in the morning. What a blessing this time was! These seem like such simple things, but we have learned in a very short time not to take seemingly routine and mondaine things for granted! Every day that we have breath is a gift from God!

On Monday my Aunt Carolyn visited from Owen Sound, which was an absolute breath of fresh air! It was so nice to visit, have her meet Grace, and pray together. She encouraged Sam and I to daily write down 5-10 things we are thankful for as a way to remind ourselves of how God is working in our lives. Even on the bad days, find seeming simple things to be greatful for and thank God for them! So every night after devotions we have been trying to get in the habit of taking turns sharing our daily thanksgivings.

Now for our little trooper! Grace continues to receive her antibiotics through the picc line that was successfully inserted on Sunday (after 2 failed attempts on Saturday). These will be finished as of 2pm today! She also had another head ultrasound yesterday, which showed that the fluid in her brain continues to build. Grace's doctors are keeping an eye on it, and are keeping Sick Kids surgeons in the loop in hopes that they will approve the necessary drainage surgery. They routinely measure her head to track the growth rate of the fluid, and are monitoring her vitals (and body) which will show any distress signals if the pressure becomes to much. This has been the hardest thing to trust God in, as we see our baby thrive on all accounts but watch her head grow as fluid builds and not being able to do anything but wait patiently for him to move.

Right now our main goal is for Grace to gain more weight, especially so that Sick Kids approves her for the surgery. She is currently over her birth weight and as of yesterday weighed 629 grams! Progress, no matter how small is progress.

One day at a time. Focusing only on each day as it comes, as God gives us strength for this day, not tomorrow, for He holds our futures in His hands and will reveal it in time, as we step out in faith. He only calls us to show up each new day, and there He will meet us with what we need.

Breathe.

Take it one day at a time.